omg....scary news i just heard...

A fren told me that there was this fren of hers whose baby died in her uterus at 38 weeks....OMG>...38 weeks??!?!?! reason??

during the last 2 weeks the mom ate too much heaty food and her body was too hot and the baby wasn't comfortable and it kept turning and turning inside her womb and the umbilical cord tied around her neck a few rounds  and the baby was suffocated inside..OMG......moral of the story...DUN LET PREGGERS GET TO HOT!!!!!

Its closing to 2am and BABY IS STARTING TO STIR UP FROM HER SLEEP!

hahahaha...Michaela's sleep cycle is almost in my grasp! Her active time is 2am-4am. And now she's awake! lalalalala. Meeting lynn at 1130 tmr for lunch!

Oh and thanks to a friend who is passing me some baby stuff. Appreciate it! Can save a lot on those. gonna look for a crib next. I think i would wanna use it.

wow....breast pads will be up to use soon!

While i was typing....my boobs LEAKED! it was like a warm sensation at the nips area and I checked...COLOSTRUM!!! the clear sticky liquid...omg...boobies are preparing for milk production. How cool! Meaning it is soon that Michaela will be joining us! excited!~

Its fried hokkien mee for breakfast!

I gained 2 kg this month...needa start looking at what i am eating...weight gain is in the normal range so i am not so worried. think its growing at my baby...according to ppl who see me...i didn't gain any weight except on my tummy..plus baby is measuring larger den usual...so i think baby is growing up well this month. Can't wait for the next checkup! last week of the month....one more week! Can't wait to see how much Michaela has grown. apple juice with csi...perfect. Gonna go to sleep after a few episodes. Will be home alone..have to settle my lunch myself today...gonna be tofu and prawns...with rice and xiao bai cai and herbal soup. hahahaha...i have planned my lunch/dinner. I shall upload on how to cook the meal later. pic tut...

My fetal development this week!

healthy snack!

So....after having my dinner....and 1 movie..I WAS HUNGRY. I made myself a healthy snack. blueberries, strawberries honeymelon and corn flakes with yogurt with a spoon of condensed milk.

Freshness of the shower!

Shampoo and body wash...the smell of herbal essence and watermelon smell body wash...vitamin E ALL over my body...ahhhh...the freshness....

One of the worse Braxton hicks contractions...

I am having really bad cramps in my uterus...it just hurts. That's it. HURTS worse den period cramps...its either i am really dehydrated or something is wrong...but Michaela's moving A LOT. so its not her. its me. AND...GOOD NEWS!! She has moved up! yea...she's now above my belly button which is good compared to b4..but bad for me...cos thats the reason i have been getting really bad heartburn...really really bad ones....even b4 i was preggers i have been having those sickening heartburns and acid reflux..now its just..bad...damn bad...and i can't sleep...awake since yesterday 8pm. Gonna try to go to sleep..hopefully i can sleep cos i am damn tired....zzzzzzzzzzzzz

just another day...

yawns........lalaaaallaa...its just another boring day...nothing much...right..i needa make a newborn checklist...and also plan my day to go to malaysia to stock up...and plan the baby shower!

yea...insomnia...again...

Insomnia During Pregnancy — What It Is

The inability to fall or stay sleep, especially in the third trimester of pregnancy.

Insomnia During Pregnancy — What Causes It

A complicated combination of hormones and a number of unhelpful conditions, such as frequent urination, persistent heartburn during pregnancy, leg cramps, and pre-birth anxiety can all cause difficulty sleeping during pregnancy.

Insomnia During Pregnancy — What You Need to Know

You're probably getting more shut-eye than you think, but between any anxieties you might be feeling about the baby's birth, the fact that your sleep is interrupted by your need to pee, and the fact that you're tossing and turning all night (it's not easy to sleep with a watermelon), it's no wonder you're feeling as if you're not sleeping during pregnancy at all. If there's any bright side here, it's the assurance that you're getting some solid practice for what lies ahead.

Insomnia During Pregnancy — What You Can Do About It

• Don't worry. Insomnia can't hurt you or your baby. Plus, sometimes just letting go of the worry is all it takes to help you sleep.
• Clear the emotional decks. If you have persistent worries that are keeping you up nights, talk about them with a friend or your partner and try to sort them out during daylight hours — or try writing them down.
• Take your time at dinner. Don't wolf your food down, and keep the pace leisurely so that heartburn doesn't keep you tossing and turning. And try not to eat dinner too close to bedtime (a full tummy can make you too energized — or too uncomfortable to sleep).
• Avoid caffeine and chocolate in the late afternoon or evening, since they can keep you awake. A light snack will tide you over until breakfast, but choose it wisely — a whole-grain muffin and a glass of milk (warm it if you like; it could help you get to sleep), or a cheese stick and a few dried apricots.
• Fill your daily requirement of fluids during the early evening to cut down on bathroom runs after you've hit the hay.
• Get some daily pregnancy exercise, but not too close to bedtime (a post-workout buzz can keep you awake).
• Make a bedtime routine. Try to go to sleep and get up at the same time every day. Every night, read a book, listen to soothing music, or watch TV until drowsiness sets in.
• Try lulling yourself into a sleepy state with a warm bath and a cup of warm milk, or solicit your partner for a relaxing prenatal massage.
• If you're uncomfortable, you won't sleep. Is your bedroom too cold? Is it a sauna? Check the temperature, and make sure you're using a mattress and pillows that provide solid support without feeling like bricks. A body pillow can help you get comfortable, and help you get the sleep you need. Open a window to keep the room from getting stuffy — you're sure to heat up during the night.
• If you're doing daytime activities in bed, you might be unwittingly associating that part of your home with being awake — and with stress. Pay your bills in the kitchen, and save the bed for its more traditional purposes — lovemaking (if you and your partner are still interested) and sleeping.
• Don't use sleep aids (over-the-counter, prescription, or herbal) or alcohol to help you sleep. These are dangerous during pregnancy.
• If you're not sleeping, get up. Conquer a small task that needs to be done (think bill paying for 15 minutes, not scrubbing the toilet) — and then try to go to sleep again. You may just be tired enough by that point to get the rest you need.
• Don't count the hours — though most people do best on eight hours of sleep, some do fine on less and some need more. So instead of aiming for a particular number of sleep hours — ask yourself how you're feeling on the hours you're sleeping during pregnancy. If you're not chronically tired, you may be getting enough rest.

what the hell....

I am so damn tired and sleepy...BUT I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP!!!! WHY WHY WHY?!??!?!??! Baby is having hiccups again...I turn off the lights I am wide awake...and when i switch on the lights...and look at my lappy...i just wanna sleep....this is damn bad....I'm having braxton hicks contractions again. this time strong ones...my entire uterus will just become SOOO hard and den it relaxes and it becomes hard again and relaxes...argh...its driving me mad...

OMG OMG OMG.....

I am now in week 30?!???!?!?!? WOW......i was in week 27 just "YESTERDAY"...CAN U BELIEVE IT?! I was still thinking i was in week 29...Michaela is gonna come out soon!!! 10 more weeks!!! OMG.....SERIOUSLY......ARGH!!!!!! Nesting nesting! No wonder my tummy grew SOOO much!!! Can't wait for the check up i have coming up in 2 weeks it think....oh....by right...it should be NEXT week...cos its gonna be 27th of this month...i would be in week 31! WOOHOOO!! Can't wait to see how much she has grown. I am starting to feel the tiredness.....my back and legs...I have around 2kg worth of stuff in me...the baby the amniotic fluid and the placenta which i hope WILL MIGRATE UP! I dun want a C section. Oh yea..baby shower coming up soon too!! 29th. DUDETTES I'LL SEE YOU THAT DAY!

Changing baby's name spelling!

I would be sticking to Michaela instead of Makayla.....

BABY KICKING LIKE MAD TODAY!!....as usual....LOL

Ow....i am sitting down doing my new music website...and SHE was asleep until..NOW. And when she's asleep i can sit relaxed and slouch a bit....but when she's awake..SHE STRETCHES. And her legs will hit my stomch and ribs and have no choice but to sit up very very straight.....1st time i WORKED for 8 hours non stop....i finished my webpage design!!!!!!!!!!

WEEK 29!!!!

How big is your baby?
Your baby will be weighing in at around 2.54 pounds (1.153kg) and measuring 15.2 inches (38.6cm).

How big are you?
Your uterus now sits about 2.75-3.93 inches (7.5-10cm) above your bellybutton and about 11.4 inches (29cm) above your pubic symphysis.

Your total weight gain by this week should be around 18- 27 pounds (8.5-12.25kg).

How is your baby developing and growing
Your babys lungs will be developed enough that he/she would be able to breath air. Your babys brain is now developed enough that it can control rhythmic breathing, and so if your baby were to be born now, then he/she would be able to breathe on his/her own. In fact - with each passing day your babys chances of surviving outside of the womb increase dramatically.

You would be noticing a vast change now in your pregnancy week by week as your baby will be growing bigger and bigger quite quickly now. Because weight gain is so rapid now, babies that are bornprematurely, even if only a few weeks, may be tiny and a lot smaller than babies which go to the full term of your pregnancy.

Here are a couple of interesting factors about birth weight:

• Boys weigh more than girls
• Birth weight increases with the increasing number of pregnancies you have.

As your babys brain and senses develop he/she will become more and more sensitive to light and dark, sound, taste and even your babys skin is becoming sensitive. By the end of this week your babys eyes will even be capable of moving inside their sockets. Your baby will be practicing seeing.

Our Nutrition
You would no doubt have been listening to what you body has to say, and listening for any new discomforts, but are you listening to what your body is saying with regard to your nutrition?

Eat smaller meals more frequentlyHere are some helpful hints to help you on your eating and nutritional habits:

• Keep nourishing snacks nearby
• Drink lots of water
• Raisins, nuts and dried fruit are great for when you are on the go.
• Don't force yourself to eat something that your stomach doesn't agree with, there is always an alternative.

Pills I'm taking FYI!

 

Prenatal vitamin! It has Vit A,D,C,B1,B2, B6, B12, Folic acid, Nicotinamide, Pantothenic Acid, Calcium, Iodine, Iron,Magnesium, Copper, Zinc...I KNOW A LOT OF VIT AND MINERALS.

FISH OIL FOR OMEGA 3!!

This would be the concoction of E.Excel Pearlin:

A herbal food concentrate rich in phytonutrients and specially formulated to help maintain your skin’s natural beauty. It is made from natural pearls, red dates and other ingredients. Daily consumption of PEARLIN/PEARLIN-II will nourish your beauty inside out. In addition, PEARLIN/PEARLIN-II also nourishes the female reproductive system. Plus calcium pills and vitamin C pills

ow.....I HAD A CONTRACTION SCARE!

shortly after evening...I GOT A CONTRACTION SCARE... My tummy HURT LIKE CRAP and it hurt till i felt damn nauseous...just feel like puking the entire time with the DAMN BAD PERIOD CRAMPS...OMG....lucky it went off after 3 hours....*phew* BABY GIRL...ITS TOO EARLY FOR U TO COME OUT!....stay inside...at least for 10 more week ok?????????

Written by someone that matches my thoughts

1. Special Considerations? No Way!

If you are unwed like me, you are not entitled to government benefits for married couples with children. If you are under 35 like me, you are not entitled to buy an HDB flat until you reach 35 years of age and when you do, you may only purchase under the “singles” scheme. If you are unwed like me, then your child is considered “illegitimate” which means that to make your child “legitimate”, you need to spend at least $3000 to adopt your own kid (huh? excuse me… he came out of my vagina leh). This also means that if you die without a will, all your assets would be given to your parents and not your child because the government considers your child as “illegitimate”. And by the way, you still need to pay taxes and your child, if a son, has to serve National Service. Is Lee Kuan Yew on Facebook reading this?

2. Visitation rights

Whether the biological father pays child maintenance or not, whether his name is on the birth certificate as the father or not, as long as he can prove that he is the biological father (via court ordered DNA), he is entitled to some form of visitation rights to your child. So you might as well claim child maintenance and not be “gung-ho” about going solo and doing this on your own. After all, since the government is not making it any easier (single moms dun get welfare/ handouts in Singapore), you certainly need ALL the help you can get.

3. Child Maintenance

Go for it! Unless of course getting a few hundred dollars is a real headache and simply not worth the emotional roller coaster or worse still, reliant dependency. For the record, I don’t get child maintenance. The last sum of money I got from my ex was to pay for the abortion that I did not go for, so I used it for maternity care instead. For those of you who are mothers, you know how far $2000 can get you in maternity care. The year I decided to take the leap of faith, quit my full time job and runFour Trimesters full time, I was barely afloat, if not sinking, for the first 1-1.5 years. Out of folly and desperation, I eventually decided that it was time my son’s biological father “paid his dues”. So I called him and explained the situation, and he asked me to email him in order to work out an arrangement. Hopeful I was – NOT! My emails starting bouncing back because he banned me from his email folder. Now this man owns more than 2 cars, lives in the prime district area. What can I say? I speculated as I did when he proposed marriage only upon finding out that I had canceled the scheduled abortion, that this was not a road worth walking, so I found another path.

4. Choose your battles wisely

A lifelong skill – choose your battles wisely. I tried three times before I was given a “special concession” to purchase a 3 room HDB flat at market rate. When I wanted to upgrade and re-appealed to buy a 4 or 5 room HDB flat, the authorities turned me down. I tried a couple of times to appeal only to discover that I have “progressed” to a point in my life where I am really tired of fighting. Don’t want sell me a 4 or 5 room HDB flat at market rate?? Fine, I’ll look for alternatives. Choose your battles wisely, just as when you decide if child maintenance is worth the emotional turmoil especially if you are in a situation where you have to chase the other for monthly payments.

5. Support… S U P P O R T… support

You need ALL the support you can get. ALL, I repeat. I agree with Malcolm Gladwell who debunks the myth of a “self-made man” in his book: Outliers – the story of success. Had it not been for the dedication of my family in the foundation years, even though only some of them supported me through and through, and in my later years, the strong network of close and trusted friends, I truly would not have made it this far. And it will probably be worth your while to strategize the kind of support you need, so as to maximize your access to resources.
I cannot do without my family and my friends, however, I have also learnt to be very selective when it comes to family and friends. I choose to be around people who are supportive of me as a person and a single mom especially in the early days, when hormones are all tender and all over the place and I needed a free flow of love and support.

6. Be your own woman

After  you are “seasoned” with experience (not so much age), you evolve into a tough cookie. By now, you would have probably learnt that you are on your own baby – with another to raise and feed. No one is going to stand up for you and your child, not even the people you pay taxes to and sometimes, very very sadly, your own family which violates your basic right to belong. You are on your own, so might as well get used to it and be bold.

So what if you pay $1,000 for your child’s kindergarden education which even married couples (read: dual income) would consider extravagant? So what if you do a thousand other things that are not the “norm”? It’s no longer about what others think….you are your own woman, be bold, and do what you have to do because at the end of the day, it is always easy for others to “speak behind your back” butno one, is walking your path in your shoes. So you earn the right to be your own woman. Besides you are already an “outcast” from society as an unwed mom.

7. Confidence

Unless of course, you’ve got confidence. You are only an outcast if you deem yourself an outcast. There is nothing wrong with being a single unwed mom. Nothing. The government may punish you for it and your family and friends might choose to abandon you. However, the last thing you want to do is to punish yourself and worse still, your child for it. So walk your talk woman!

8. Always remember that being a single mom is a choice

You could have gone for an abortion; you could have given your child away for adoption; you could have left your child outside a hospital (like a drama series), and you didn’t. Even though the situation wasn’t ideal. You chose to be a single mother, remember that.

9. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

There are only 2 options: you either sink or you float. However, if you choose the former, you take not one but two down with you – whilst science would prove that it would be much harder to float and a lot easier to sink – Science does not measure intangibles such as “love, faith, hope and determination” that keep us afloat when the going gets tough.

10. Oh Hell!

Then, there will be days when you will be at the end of your tether with some of the following attitudes “Damn it! This is hell, I can’t stand living this way!” or “What the hell have I gotten myself into?” Know that it’s okay and that you are okay…. life goes on… go back to reading points 8 and 9.

11. And please, don’t vent it on your child

This does not sound nice but it’s the truth, and I know, I am not the only one who does it. I plead guilty. The days when I could pull my hair out, the days when I cried buckets but not enough to flood the world so my problems could be swept away. Every day, every moment, every breath – is a new moment to start afresh. Bygones are bygones. Live in the present.

12. Remember that you have your own life to live

I know, it’s hard, especially when you need to work a full time job to pay the bills, send and pick up your child from childcare and don’t have extra help after work hours with baby-sitting etc. How to have a life? I started with a life “online” through parenting forums and support groups for the first few years. It was only when Kieran was about 6.5 years old that I started going out and establishing a life of my own. Bit by bit, step by step, some things can wait, but remember, you have your own life to lead.

13. It can get lonely

No matter how strong your support system is, there will be days when you wish you had that “someone” whom you could lean on and share both your joys and your sorrows. You can indulge by romanticizing or even grieving the absence of one, but girl, get moving after you are done because you are on your own. Disclaimer: if you believe in God, then you’ll also know that you are not walking alone even when it feels that way. And if you don’t, know that there are more than 500 single unwed moms out there lurking somewhere incognito in Singapore – who knows – one of them could be among your neighbours!

HI TROLLS!

So, i have trolls asking me stupid questions. well..I DUN GIVE A DAMN. CAlling me loose? oh pls...get a life...u dun even know me....call me fat...SO WHAT? I AM MAKING A BABY INSIDE ME. YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT WHETHER I AM FAT OR NOT? GOSH..and apparently you all like me soooo much to ask me sooo many questions and to follow my blog and ask me questions...if u hate me so much.....GET LOST. GET ON WITH YOUR OWN LIFE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH

Now this explains my aches in my joints...

Why am I having tingling and numbness in my hands during pregnancy?

These sensations are most likely caused by carpal tunnel syndrome. Although you probably associate this condition with people whose jobs require repetitive hand movements (such as data processors, computer programmers, and assembly-line workers), it's also more prevalent in pregnant women.

Symptoms may include numbness, tingling, burning, pain, or a dull ache in the fingers, hand, wrist, and even up the arm to the shoulder. In severe chronic cases, your hand may feel clumsy or weak.

Symptoms usually affect both hands and can appear at any time, but they're more likely to begin or worsen in the second half of pregnancy when women tend to retain more fluid. The symptoms usually go away gradually after you give birth, as the swelling from pregnancy subsides.

What causes carpal tunnel syndrome during pregnancy?

The carpal tunnel is a bony canal formed by the wrist bones on three sides and a ligament that runs across the wrist on the other. The swelling and fluid retention that's so common during pregnancy can increase the pressure in this relatively narrow and inflexible space, compressing the median nerve that runs through it.

The median nerve gives sensation to the thumb and the index, middle, and half of the ring finger and is responsible for movement of a muscle at the base of the thumb. Pressure on this nerve is what causes the symptoms.

What can I do to relieve the pain?

If possible, avoid any activity that requires forceful, repetitive hand movements. Although these movements may not have caused your carpal tunnel syndrome, they can make your symptoms worse.

If your job requires this kind of movement and you must continue it, consider wearing wrist or hand braces while you work.

If you're working at a computer, adjust the height of your chair so your wrists aren't bent downward as you type. Using a special ergonomic keyboard can help in some cases. Remember to take breaks to stretch your hands.

If your symptoms bother you at night, shift your sleeping position and try to prop up your arm with a pillow or two when you feel the twinges. Avoid sleeping on your hands. If you wake up with pain, try shaking your hands until the pain or numbness goes away.

If you have a lot of discomfort at night, try stabilizing your wrist in a neutral position (not bent) with a splint or brace. A neutral position allows the carpal tunnel to be slightly wider.

Practicing yoga can help relieve the pain and increase hand strength. You may have heard that taking extra vitamin B6 can help, but two small clinical trials have shown no immediate benefit from this treatment.

Needa hydrate!

ow my heart is beating damn fast and strong...I can feel it from outside...ARGH....so hot....

Shouldn't have napped...

I CAVED IN!!!! Caved in to the afternoon tiredness...*mumble mumble* I was SOO tired i fell asleep watching  my favourite CSI...I FELL ASLEEP WATCHING CSI!!!!! OMG! And now i am awake but i can feel the sleepiness creeping in...gonna finish watching 2 more episodes to finish the season. starting to feel groggy...lucky i have nothing on tmr...just gonna plan the baby shower, practice some piano, do some baby planning..oh right...i am dehydrated these few days...have been drinking A LOT of water today..spam!!!!!!! And milk..2 bowls. Improvement..the goodness for the baby. ^^ I shall find an excuse for napping..I AM SURE I CAN FIND IT!.

Ops...can't find...ahhahaa.a...but its common for preggers to feel fatigue during the last trimester WHICH I AM IN NOW...cos I'm getting heavier and heavier and same goes to the little one. BUT I AM THE ONE CARRYING HER...its like carrying a 2kg weight 24 hours and it keeps increasing in mass every DAY..yes..baby goes 2 ounces EVERY DAY inside me...and 2 ounces is aorund 56 grams..that is A LOT of weight baby grows PER DAY! ow...the braxton hicks....tightening while i am typing....think i'm NOT gonna have a good nights sleep..due to the spam of water...i am SOO thirsty and Makayla's moving around SOO much now...i shall try to empty my bladder as much as I can and go to bed...groggy already...ZZZZZZZZ

Chey....fish oil has no effect on pregnant women and the growing baby inside..

As according to studies...fish oil has no extra benefits to the baby...so no point taking...CHEH....i shall stick to prenatal vitamins..1 per day! And the calcium...baby is SUCKING my calcium still..or not...i'm not sure..let me go check...oh right

When you're pregnant, your developing baby needs calcium to build strong bones and teeth; to grow a healthy heart, nerves, and muscles; and to develop a normal heart rhythm and blood-clotting abilities. If you don't get enough calcium in your diet when you're pregnant, your baby will draw it from your bones, which may impair your own health later on.


Women over 18: 1,000 milligrams (mg) a day before, during, and after pregnancy


hahahahha FOUND IT! that is  A LOT OF CALCIUM.....1 cup of fruit yogurt is only 345mg..i will need like 3-4 cups per day...=.= that's important den....not the fish oil...fish oil..AFTER Makayla's out...the milk will be FULL of omega 3....

Its braxton hicks day!

I'm having the practice cramps....its practicing how to 'push'! hahahaha...pain and stop.....after a few hours...pain and stop...

oh right! talking abt Makayla..

I had a student today at 11...so i set my alarm at 10 and after the alarm rang i cancelled and set a new one at 1030 cos i was so damn sleepy..and den it went of at 1030...I JUST COULDN'T WAKE UP! UNTIL...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Makayla gave me a DAMN HARD KICK in the side of my stomach until i woke up in shock. =.=....THANKS AH MAKAYLA! My "INNER" clock...literally...haha. I am sooo tired...

TIME TO PLAN FOR THE BABY SHOWER!

So, the baby shower will be held at my place..or rather..my aunty's place at yishun...gonna have to set a budget and buy some 'party' stuff. I would need to plan a few baby shower games...BETTING WILL BE INCLUDED! So, girls..prepare your cash! hahahahahahaha. Good food too! Leave it to me. *Makayla kicked* ahahaahahahaa see? even my girl says leave it to my mummy. mummy's a damn good cook! CHICKEN WINGS IS A MUST! I will prepare a huge bunch of healthy food and the only not that healthy food would be the chicken wings..lol. Baby shower games are gonna be secret till the actual day. ^^....hmm...wad else do i need to prepare..oh yea...the shopping list for you guys! Baby Cot/playpen....cute toys...clothes...car seat...baby bath tub...shower wash??? seriously i dunno wad else to prepare...just typing about the baby shower is making me excited..lolz..Ah.......omg..wait..I AM GONNA BE A MUM?!?!?!?! wow..i am still in shock...i will always be...Makayla's in shock too...'I AM GROWING 2 OUNCES A DAY?! GOSH.."...haha so damn active tonight! Her kicks are SO strong today. Can see it from the outisde..dun even have to touch..i am looking at my stomach. active active girl...*yawns* Makayla...mummy's tired.....STOP MOVING SO I CAN SLEEP!!*yawns*

SUPPER!

milk and frosties!!! yea..i admit..high in sugar...hahahhahaahah...BUT U CAN'T DENY A PREGGERS HER CRAVING RIGHT.....*puppy eyes* hahahaahahahaaa..ok.....high.......*breathe* relax....back to CSI!

MY BACK....MY FEET!!!

THE KILLER OF MY PREGNANCY....THE BACK PAIN! OW...You know how that pain is??? YOU WUN KNOW UNTIL YOU ARE PREGNANT! It is THAT bad until i can't sit for more den a few hours. unlike last time...omg....stand also cannot stand too long...right....MY FEET!!! IT GREW AT LEAST 1 SIZE!!! The shoe hurt my leg SOOO bad....lesson: DO NOT WEAR COVERED SHOES WHEN U ARE PREGGERSS....HAYYELLL NOOOOOO

WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BODY?!??!?!

OI BODY! Its either very bad hurt burn OR very bad back ache...ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! And now my back ache is SOOOO bad until I can't even bend down more den 5 degrees.....urgh...pain pain pain pain...student tmr morning! gonna wear my nice blue maternity dress out tmr!

hahaha love this phrase from the website i was reading..

A full body pregnancy pillow is not a luxury… it is a must have accessory, one that will help you sleep, relax, may help reduce edema and help support your neck, back, legs, belly and any other body part you want before, during and after pregnancy.

10 Reasons why you'll want to breastfeed:

1. It's simple and quick (no bottles, measuring or mixing!).
2. It protects your baby from diseases, viruses, stomach pain, and infections, and lowers their risk of allergies and asthma.
3. Your milk contains oxytocin - the "love hormone", which helps you and your baby bond with one another.
4. It also contains over 400 vitamins, minerals, fats, and proteins NOT present in any formula out there.
5. Breastfed babies have higher IQs. (The longer you breastfeed, the higher the IQ of the child.)
6. It's custom-tailored specifically to your child's nutrition and immunity needs.
7. It protects your baby against SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome).
8. It burns about 500 extra calories a day for YOU. Breastfeeding = quicker postpartum weight loss!
9. It contains special brain-promoting proteins and fats not found in any formula out there.
10. It's 100% free (well, pumps and nursing bras aren't, but they're still cheaper than a year's worth of formula).

Baby update!

Your Baby in Week 28 of Pregnancy

Your baby is settling into the proper position for birth, with his head facing downward (toward your body's nearest exit!). Your little work in progress is now about 2.5 pounds and almost 16 inches long. He's busy adding new skills such as blinking to an already impressive repertoire of tricks like coughing, sucking, hiccuping, and taking practice breaths. Your baby's sleep now includes the REM (rapid eye movement) phase — and that means he could be dreaming already (what do you suppose he's dreaming about?).

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Your Body in Week 28 of Pregnancy

While it's good news that your baby is settling into the right position for childbirth (since you're now entering the third trimester), the potentially painful news is his head — plus the weight of your uterus — may now be sitting on your sciatic nerve, which runs through the lower part of your back, buttocks, and legs. This common condition (called sciatica) can cause sharp, shooting pain and/or tingling or numbness, starting in your rear end and radiating down the backs of your legs. The best thing to do for sciatica (and the rest of your week 28 aches and woes)? Take it easy — and hope your baby changes position sooner rather than later.

OKAY! New update on a good fren of mine!

So, Sah-leen pek actually didn't know i play the violin...until i told her i TEACH the violin....GIRL!!! you have known me for like...almost...6 years?? lolz. yea...to all those who dunno me, i have been learning the violin since 4/5 and the piano since 14/15....and i TEACH both instruments...gonna be a stay home mum...teach from home....work from home...take care of Makayla too! So yea....Music is probably the only thing i am talented in...with? wadever...and COOKING! right...i think i'm gonna make cooking tutorials also..post them up on my blog so u guys can see wad i cook for a pregger...HAHAHAHHA

WOW WOW WOW

OMGAWD.....Makayla has been kicking.....10 times MORE than usual. It's crazy!!!!! Especially today! by right its the 1st day of my 3rd trimester..i guess...28th week..YEA....and she's like officially announcing to the world...I AM IN THE HOME STRETCH!! FINAL TRIMESTER AND I AM READY TO COME OUT OF MUMMY! So, i have been watching a lot of youtube videos on other mummies preggers update...wow...THEY LOOK HUGE!! But i am still so ...ok...my body isn't puny...neither is my tummy..but my tummy is puny for 7 months! I look...4 months??? okay..anyway most of them actually had an INCH per WEEK growth in their stomach...so i guess my tummy will have the growth spurt starting? Makayla's gonna run out of place to do her stuns and gymnastics thingy already...Placenta is still low....sometimes i feel pressure..;better rest more! reduce walking..hopefully it'll move up at the end of the month!

Okay! For my sweeties who have been following my blog!

Hey, thanks guys/girls who are following my blog and giving me support! THANK YOU SO MUCH! Eh.....ok. My due date somewhere between END july or EARLY august.  But, we're keeping it at 1st august as a according to the ultrasound machine..so dudes and dudettes....1st of AUGUST!!!!! Keep reading my blog y'all!

Fresh orange juice!

So, kak kak didn't cook soup today so i took it into my own hands and i am now cooking soup. kampong chicken with carrots, potatoes, tomato, scallop, red dates...gonna be nice! So, while waiting for the soup to cook, i'm watching tlc and drinking fresh orange juice...freshly squeezed!

Early morning bird!

I have just finished my 1st student of the day. B4 my student I had a great breakfast! Fruit 'tart'..not really tart tart but...bread? What do u call the texture...layered? wadever la...its damn nice and perk me up for my day! although i dragged myself outta bed..i am proud of not cancelling lesson. ^^ huge step towards success!

time to go sleep....

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My hair smells so nice...nice of herbal essence...time to go sleep! nights dudes and dudettes!

Belly update! (i know there a few who are dying to know how it looks like now)

This was how i look at 21 weeks....

NOW FOR THE 26 weeks update: *drum roll*

I DIDN'T REALISE IT GREW SOOO MUCH

NEW SYMPTOM!!

MY SKIN LOOKS RED. yea i just checked...I AM NOT KIDDIN...ITS RED!!!.. okay...So, i just did my laundry, waiting for it to be washed in the washing machine (unlike some ppl who buy washing machine but still ask the maid to use hand). 40 mins to go! And i just cleaned my room, updated Makayla's time-line wall...which is mostly the huge updates bi-weekly of Makayla including her movements, her growth...my growth and pregnancy symptoms. SO, this weeks symptoms:
 I have been sleeping 12 hours a day....roughly 7pm i would be asleep and i would wake up around 6am-7am and i would laze around and make breakfast and start my day. Mostly practicing piano, planning the baby's stuff...fruitful...and when i am done with those, i watch labor and birth videos..so i know wad is upcoming...read up on pregnancy..and of course talk to Makayla and God, since Makayla's given to me by God, I will help her talk to God 1st and when she comes, she can 'self service' and talk to HIM thru Jesus. ANYWAY....Gonna get a playpen from mothercare..its around 100 odd dollars. Can be used till the baby is 4 or 5. worth it. Makayla's having hicucps in me again..hahaha. practicing too much breathing. Or maybe i sneezed tooo hard just now and shocked her...LOL...sorry makaykay......back to the topic! So, i'll be going to malaysia maybe end of the month to get some baby supplies..CHEAP CHEAP one.....baby wash..baby tub...wad else...oh..DIAPERS..DAMN cheap over there...*yawns* DID i mention i've got 4 pillows?? LOL. Trust me..there is no such thing as TOO MANY PILLOWS when u are pregnant. loving it! Maybe that's why i have been sleeping SO MUCH..which is good cause I've got a low lying placenta...which will lead to bleeding in later part of pregnancy...or even risk having a c section which i DO NOT WANT. But, most probably, the placenta will shift up during the last 1-2 months...hopefully i will get a vaginal delivery....stitches DOWN THERE is better den A LOT OF STITCHES BETWEEN MUSCLES AND WADEVER NOTS. >.< Great, I'm hungry. zzzzzzzz time for food!

It is sooo weird....still can't imagine I have Makayla inside of me..

Everytime i look at the ultrasound pics..its hard to imagine I have a HUMAN BEING inside of me...omg...yea i know..she moves inside..but...to know how she looks....with MY LIPS....amazing....

lets see the difference between Makayla at 21 weeks and 26 weeks.

MAKAYLA AT 21 WEEKS

SHE HAS MY MOUTH!!!! And she has fats...look at her cheeks..LOL..

omg...I AM DYING OF THE HEAT!!!

Okay..so went for check up today. My placenta is STILL low lying....PRAY FOR ME DUDES AND DUDETTES. hopefully it shifts up so i wun need a c sec....baby is packing up on fats! she has cheecks now..and MY MOUTH..and i am serious..MY MOUTH. ^^..will upload the picture soon. too tired to do anything....too hot....i just wanna go to sleep...zzzzzzzzz. NIghts people!

So, i cried myself to sleep....

Have you guys ever tried crying till there's no more tears left and you fall asleep with the pillow case wet? I had, MANY times...and last night was the worst...Pull thru...i MUST pull thru...i have sleeping spells again...its either the pregnancy...OR, my depression is back..where i sleep for 20 hours a day and not eat...urgh..pray that i will not be it

Baby its just you and me now....

Makayla, we're officially HOMELESS. No more hope of going home with grandpa and grandma. We're officially disowned. No more hope of going back to the family. Its just you and me. I will get a full time job. Send in income statement, take my piano diploma all by this year and myself and you. Save up enough money and MOVE OUT OF THIS GODDAM PLACE. Since i so unwelcomed in this family, I will save as much money in the least time and We're on our own. NO more DEPENDING on the family. You dun have a dad. YOU HAVE A MUM. as of me? I HAVE You AND NOTHING ELSE. Just God and You. I dunno whether it will be enough for me to survive, but I PRAY IT WILL BE. Too hurt to do anything else...have been having insomnia due to not being accepted back to the family. I guess...its done. I'm not gonna be accepted. Just have to depend on my own now. Ask me to be positive.....I am positive....i think....i shall see how i survive without my family. Its either I press on and get depression and what nots or i kill myself and baby tgt. I guess i will try the 1st one 1st. and see how long i can last. the moment i cant will be the moment i ask God to take my life away.

DO YOU KNOW?

Mothers are WEI DA....BUT,single mothers are the MOST WEI DA one. Look at what we have to go through

TOP ON THE LIST AT NUMBER 1:

We get rejected by our own parents cause they feel shameful, but we can't blame them cause its hard to accept. And we can only WAIT till they accept. But, 1 thing they should know, WE NEED THE SUPPORT, SO DUN MAKE US WAIT TOO LONG.

NEXT UP ON NUMBER 2:

FINANCIAL PROBLEMS

For kids in Singapore, THERE IS NO EDUSAVE FOR KIDS WHO ARE SINGLE PARENTHOOD. WHY? cause our kids are illegitimate and not approved. We have to ADOPT our own child and make it OFFICIAL. And that is A FEW THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS. 

Single mums can't get their own house till they are 35 AT LEAST and NO 5 ROOM FLAT, be it whether u CAN or CANNOT afford. 

NUMBER 3:

RELATIVES CALLING US SLUTS, and worse...BLAMING OUR OWN PARENTS FOR WHAT WE DID. TO THOSE RELATIVES..what i can say is...SHUT THE HELL UP AND DON"T BLAME OUR PARENTS CAUSE IT IS US WHO GOT PREGNANT. 

Number 4:

We have to do everything ourselves...that includes going to check ups and if u are lucky u get a loving GOD MUM like ME. Or your friend can follow. We have to talk to our babies telling them that no matter what happens, we love them the most. 

Number 5: 

Because of all of the above, we are more prone to stress and will most probably fall into the 'prenatal depression/ postnatal depression. UNLESS, we know how to cope with it. 

Number 6: 

Because of all of the above AGAIN, We tend to cry almost EVERY night b4 sleeping or when we're alone. Doubting whether we can pull through the ordeal or not. And this causes:

INSOMNIA

DEPRESSION

LOST OF APPETITE>>>>>>>baby will not grow up healthily.

Last but not least, WHILE WE YOUNG SINGLE MUMMIES ARE EXPERIENCING THAT, OUR PARENTS ARE JUST THINKING AND WORRYING ABOUT:

1) THEIR FACE AND REPUTATION

2) WHETHER WE CAN BRING UP THE CHILD BY OURSELVES

3) TOO SAD TO DO ANYTHING...

4) REFUSE TO FACE THE FACT THAT THEY HAVE A GRANDCHILD INCOMING

THEY REFUSE TO ACCPET US CAUSE OF THAT NOT KNOWING WE"RE GOING THOUGHT MUCH MORE THAN WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH.

BUT, IT WILL CHANGE>>>WHEN THEY SEE THE BABY. You can hate us all you want. BUT, the baby will always be the one that bring the family back together. 

MINI HAUL!

Not all cute and nice baby clothes come from expensive places..i got 2 cute jumpsuits for a bargain...just a mere 8 bucks per piece..very good quality. cheap doesn't mean CHEAP. and expensive doesn't mean real quality..some are just so over rated. so this was wad i bot..

CUTE RIGHT

Decided on something!

I'm gonna start writting a book. yea...I AM SERIOUS. Book name would be, The Single Mummy Support from God.