It is sooo weird....still can't imagine I have Makayla inside of me..

Everytime i look at the ultrasound pics..its hard to imagine I have a HUMAN BEING inside of me...omg...yea i know..she moves inside..but...to know how she looks....with MY LIPS....amazing....

lets see the difference between Makayla at 21 weeks and 26 weeks.

MAKAYLA AT 21 WEEKS

SHE HAS MY MOUTH!!!! And she has fats...look at her cheeks..LOL..

omg...I AM DYING OF THE HEAT!!!

Okay..so went for check up today. My placenta is STILL low lying....PRAY FOR ME DUDES AND DUDETTES. hopefully it shifts up so i wun need a c sec....baby is packing up on fats! she has cheecks now..and MY MOUTH..and i am serious..MY MOUTH. ^^..will upload the picture soon. too tired to do anything....too hot....i just wanna go to sleep...zzzzzzzzz. NIghts people!

So, i cried myself to sleep....

Have you guys ever tried crying till there's no more tears left and you fall asleep with the pillow case wet? I had, MANY times...and last night was the worst...Pull thru...i MUST pull thru...i have sleeping spells again...its either the pregnancy...OR, my depression is back..where i sleep for 20 hours a day and not eat...urgh..pray that i will not be it

Baby its just you and me now....

Makayla, we're officially HOMELESS. No more hope of going home with grandpa and grandma. We're officially disowned. No more hope of going back to the family. Its just you and me. I will get a full time job. Send in income statement, take my piano diploma all by this year and myself and you. Save up enough money and MOVE OUT OF THIS GODDAM PLACE. Since i so unwelcomed in this family, I will save as much money in the least time and We're on our own. NO more DEPENDING on the family. You dun have a dad. YOU HAVE A MUM. as of me? I HAVE You AND NOTHING ELSE. Just God and You. I dunno whether it will be enough for me to survive, but I PRAY IT WILL BE. Too hurt to do anything else...have been having insomnia due to not being accepted back to the family. I guess...its done. I'm not gonna be accepted. Just have to depend on my own now. Ask me to be positive.....I am positive....i think....i shall see how i survive without my family. Its either I press on and get depression and what nots or i kill myself and baby tgt. I guess i will try the 1st one 1st. and see how long i can last. the moment i cant will be the moment i ask God to take my life away.

DO YOU KNOW?

Mothers are WEI DA....BUT,single mothers are the MOST WEI DA one. Look at what we have to go through

TOP ON THE LIST AT NUMBER 1:

We get rejected by our own parents cause they feel shameful, but we can't blame them cause its hard to accept. And we can only WAIT till they accept. But, 1 thing they should know, WE NEED THE SUPPORT, SO DUN MAKE US WAIT TOO LONG.

NEXT UP ON NUMBER 2:

FINANCIAL PROBLEMS

For kids in Singapore, THERE IS NO EDUSAVE FOR KIDS WHO ARE SINGLE PARENTHOOD. WHY? cause our kids are illegitimate and not approved. We have to ADOPT our own child and make it OFFICIAL. And that is A FEW THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS. 

Single mums can't get their own house till they are 35 AT LEAST and NO 5 ROOM FLAT, be it whether u CAN or CANNOT afford. 

NUMBER 3:

RELATIVES CALLING US SLUTS, and worse...BLAMING OUR OWN PARENTS FOR WHAT WE DID. TO THOSE RELATIVES..what i can say is...SHUT THE HELL UP AND DON"T BLAME OUR PARENTS CAUSE IT IS US WHO GOT PREGNANT. 

Number 4:

We have to do everything ourselves...that includes going to check ups and if u are lucky u get a loving GOD MUM like ME. Or your friend can follow. We have to talk to our babies telling them that no matter what happens, we love them the most. 

Number 5: 

Because of all of the above, we are more prone to stress and will most probably fall into the 'prenatal depression/ postnatal depression. UNLESS, we know how to cope with it. 

Number 6: 

Because of all of the above AGAIN, We tend to cry almost EVERY night b4 sleeping or when we're alone. Doubting whether we can pull through the ordeal or not. And this causes:

INSOMNIA

DEPRESSION

LOST OF APPETITE>>>>>>>baby will not grow up healthily.

Last but not least, WHILE WE YOUNG SINGLE MUMMIES ARE EXPERIENCING THAT, OUR PARENTS ARE JUST THINKING AND WORRYING ABOUT:

1) THEIR FACE AND REPUTATION

2) WHETHER WE CAN BRING UP THE CHILD BY OURSELVES

3) TOO SAD TO DO ANYTHING...

4) REFUSE TO FACE THE FACT THAT THEY HAVE A GRANDCHILD INCOMING

THEY REFUSE TO ACCPET US CAUSE OF THAT NOT KNOWING WE"RE GOING THOUGHT MUCH MORE THAN WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH.

BUT, IT WILL CHANGE>>>WHEN THEY SEE THE BABY. You can hate us all you want. BUT, the baby will always be the one that bring the family back together. 

MINI HAUL!

Not all cute and nice baby clothes come from expensive places..i got 2 cute jumpsuits for a bargain...just a mere 8 bucks per piece..very good quality. cheap doesn't mean CHEAP. and expensive doesn't mean real quality..some are just so over rated. so this was wad i bot..

CUTE RIGHT

Decided on something!

I'm gonna start writting a book. yea...I AM SERIOUS. Book name would be, The Single Mummy Support from God.

oh god...u gotta be kiddin me...

Pregnancy Dehydration Prevention:

As you might guess, the single best dehydration prevention is: Drink your water! Try to meet a minimum goal of 8 cups of water for you, and 24 cups of water a day for baby (amniotic fluid is replaced at the rate of approximately 1 cup per hour). Remember to increase your water intake if you're out in the sun, traveling, the humidity is high, or you're exercising.If you have a hard time stomaching ‘plain water’, try adding a splash of lemon, lime, cranberry, or other flavoring.

Stay away from caffeine, sodas, and processed fruit juices as these don’t rehydrate you, but actually act as diuretics making, you urinate more

SO IN TOTAL I AM SUPPOSED TO DRINK LIKE.....8 plus 24...32 GLASSES OF WATER? CRAZY. WHAT?!?!?!

DEHYDRATED. EXTREME

1st, i am peeing A LOT less...and i wonder why...2nd, my pee is close to orange colour....BUT, i drank quite a bit of water.....So i just drank 500ml of water to see whether the water pass thru or not....Needa hydrate myself to prevent infection in the amniotic fluid..and make sure baby doesnt 'drown' in her own waste...lolz.

Muscle aches...YES.....AGAIN!

The muscles on my ribs still hurt...wrong sleeping position? I guess so....hungry hungry ALL THE TIME..

Feeding the little one time..

soup rice vege....lalalala

WEEK 25 update!

Your baby's arms and legs have grown to almost the proportions they will be at birth, which is still sort of short. So don't be alarmed when your newborn's arms barely clear his waist. Baby's nostrils, which have been plugged up until now, clear out (like he's taken a super-dose of Sudafed) and he can practice breathing through the nose. The structures of your baby's spine are now made up of 150 joints, 33 rings and some 1,000 ligaments. Can you believe you're growing something that complicated inside of you?

The capillaries, the teeniest blood vessels, are now forming in your baby's body, giving his formerly translucent skin a pink glow. The blood vessels in the lungs also develop this week. You'll see how well that worked out when your baby gives those lungs a workout while you're on line at the bank in a few months. 

Your baby weighs about a pound and a half and is about 13½ inches long—roughly the length of one of those recorders you played in elementary school music class. Who's up for a round of "Hot Cross Buns?" 

wow...and YOU tot being pregnant would be a breeze...

I have an eye stye...and my side hurts...left rib...the muscle....and i haven slept...too caught up with house..lolz...time to massage my ribs...

knuckles hurting...

Not only are my muscles aching....my knuckles are aching too..like an old woman...and massaging wun help too...i have nails that are growing at amazing speed...and hair too...and i have pudding hair....black roots..blonde top. LOL. ow my joints and muscles...

wooo the back ache is back again

AND i have a feeling that most of my updates will be about my back aches...this sucks...SUCKS....relying on tiger balm now....will need a massage soon...but..i am afraid that it would do smt to my body and to Makayla...so i guess i will just have to depend on my own fingers and tiger balm...i can't sit, can't lay down in the same position for a long time...urgh...oh and a new update, I AM DEHYDRATED. just drinking so much water until i feel so damn bloated..but i am still thirsty...oh yea....TOILET ALL THE TIME...sick of it...3 more months to go!

oh crap....

oh crap...my sleeping time is getting later and later....opps...hahaha..but at least i am able to sleep anytime i want...so its not insomnia..watching house...loving house..hahaha...ego guy....and i have ppl who says i am faking the pregnancy.....i am amused...oh..the fear of labour is kicking in...omg.....the fear of me tearing or having a episeptomy...is that how u spell it? its like they cut open your vagina to allow baby's head to come out easier. Oh...i have tot of a name for makayla...it would be Yap Jia Le Makayla...or Makayla Yap Jia Le. ^^ She's kicking me and it really tickles when i am laying on my side...hahaha...move move move....can't wait for 3rd trimester!

I AM HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The hanger pangs are back! i am feeling hungry every 30 mins...is that even normal? gosh..

One more extra thing about being pregnant....

YOU CAN'T F(*&^&*()NG EMPTY YOUR BLADDER. Your bladder is not even full and you feel so 'FULL' and u go to the toilet and u pee....but when u tot u are done...u stand up and den u realise....THERE IS STILL PEE>..BUT.....here comes the big BUT...BUT...u can't finish peeing while sitting down...u have to bend slightly to the front to empty the bladder.....sucks...

oww my leg.....my heel actually

I have been walking WAY too much these few days....my heels hurt to the max man...ow....