feeding time!!

sore nipples with a baby with high suction DUN go tgt....hurts ttm......but wad hurt most is me coughing with the stitches....goodness.....

owww my stitches..

The pain of the stitches changed again. From the very very sore one to the very very tight and stinging to now...the bruise effect. It is a little swollen still..but not infected...I have been taking really good care of my stitches. *yawns* Feel so sleepy....

remember the hiccups that I was complaining all the time??

NOW ITS LIVE!!

Michaela's updated pics

Baby is sleeping beside me!

So I've started my total breast feeding. No more formula milk for her! I think my stitches are really healing...its stinging A LOT. Not that painful but stings cos the stitches are closing.

worst pain ever

Just had the worst pain ever....cl cleared my milk ducts...from dripping to spraying...pain like hell......up pain down pain...cry and shout like crazy...

Good morning world!

For me at least....gonna bring little boss out to see the ped. ANYWAY, I SURVIVED THE NIGHT WITHOUT PAINKILLERS! awesomeness! But I would definitely need it today...gonna insert and wait for it to take effect. I'm still so so sleepy....and having a migraine....and my boobies are engorged and painful...and leaking...gonna pump!

omg................

What a mixture of feelings. 1st of course, the pain from the stitches. I really think its healing cos i dun feel hurt inside anymore....just the outside. Have been drinking a lot of vit c and e to help repair and lots of protein too...cell repair!! I am preventing myself from taking the painkillers cos i know i would need them the most tmr when i go out.

I went for my warm shower as usual....cos i had to pee...I came out and put the procanol and the local anaesthesia gel...which helped for a while only...after which i started to pump breast milk...my boobs are getting sore like b4 period and getting pregnant. I was watching movie and i didn't realise that it leaked out from the pump...cos i had no idea i was gonna have milk today! Gonna continue pumping....u may ask me y i do not feed my baby directly, Its becos I will have to sit, and my stitches hurt ttm....gonna do dbm....direct breast feeding once my stitches dun hurt...10 days tops...its 4th day already.....6 more days to go!

I'm so sleepy.......

Just fed Michaela!

I think the painkillers totally wore off already....5 hours gone since I had them....I am only left with the 1 more...Have to take them wisely...if not i'll die of pain...I decided to take it tmr b4 bringing Michaela to the doc...gonna get Panadol and witch hazel for my wound since there wun be anymore suppositories anymore. I really love the suppositories......T.T

Baby is active at night..AS USUAL!!! Sleeping and waking up..BUT she doesn't cry or wake me up. She just self entertain....hahahah looking around....right left....making her funny noises...talk to herself...urgh...my stitches still burn and sting...gonna air my wound until it doesn't sting and gonna take a warm shower b4 going to bed...

Guess wad guess wad??

Michaela's home!!!!!!!!! Have to feed her 45-50ml of milk every 3 hours.

The pain from the stitches today is a different kinda pain. Its like you tearing up your anus after having very very bad constipation. I felt my wound. Its swollen but healing well, that's why the hurt is changing. It will be a lot better tmr.

Success!

So I had SO MUCH colostrum..when i was pumping it actually drip..good! Time to go to bed....tired...waking up at 7ish to pump again and take my antibiotics and start my day of i dunno wad...will call in the afternoon to see if Michaela can be discharged. Night peeps!

So I woke up...but it was from a deep sleep!

YAY! Deep sleep FTW!!! I slept around 11? Is it? Anyway I woke up briefly at 1 plus to change my position which was not that bad...and i woke up at 3 plus...I could feel the soreness of the wound already and it became hard for me to change position. So i decided to wake up and take a warm shower to wash my wound and spray the topical spray that would heal the wound naturally using this plant...the wound felt different..its no longer that sore as compared to a few days ago...the past few days the pain was still there even if I didn't move.But this time, the pain was more like the cut of your finger when are cooking..and it only hurts if you move and when u stop u can only feel just a little soreness and not pain. But I decided to go ahead with the painkiller...I am waiting for it to take effect b4 i go to pump my boobies to stimulate the breastmilk. I did the pumping just now b4 i slept while watching movie and the quantity of colostrum was quite a lot. Hopefully it will slowly become breastmilk and by the time when Michaela gets home she can have a little breastmilk to drink. The pain and soreness is starting to go off a little. I'm supposed to like lie down after putting the suppositories so that they wun fall out of my rectum. I shall wait till it takes full effect...would be around an hour...so at the meantime I'm browsing youtube on breastfeeding.

I realised....

I can't pee sitting down...everytime I have to pee, i have to take a shower...and I keep farting...=.= ALL the ginger is making me rid of gas. I think its time for me to rest b4 the pain comes back...hopefully I can sleep THROUGH the night and not wake up.

Pray that Michaela can come home tmr.....

Time to pump milk after my late dinner!

Gonna put hot compress and start pumping while watching movie..hahaha

I keep hearing her cries...

Although I know she's in good hands..but I MISS MY LITTLE BOSS!! It has only been like less den 12 hours since i last saw her...BUT I MISS HER ALREADY and I WOKE UP IN TEAR COS I HEARD HER CRIES IN MY SLEEP. T.T. Just put the suppository in my ass. And its working..VERY WELL...my movements are much more larger! Its gonna help me sleep later..since it lasts up to 5 hours...the moment it wears off I'm gonna stuff it in. Waiting for my food to be ready. Fried rice with egg and ginger!

Back at home. Confinement time!

No fan, No wind, No plain water bath...ALL herbal...MY FAVE ^^ Just stimualted my boobies using the new breastpump. Going to go to bed and when i wake up, gonna pump again. Needa let my boobies know that a baby has to drink milk when she gets back. Hopefully soon. Will call up tmr to ask. I just pray for my wound to heal ASAP. It IS healing..cos its getting a bit swollen and a little itchy. Will continue to take care of my wound. Sleeping does heal wounds I think. So off to bed I go!

Aww...my little boss has jaundice...

Little Miss Michaela has JUST enough jaundice to be put for the all so good 'light spa' haha. Anything that is good for her...just 1-2 days...not that bad..dunno whether I should stay with her or not...hmm....Getting her sun bath now...hopefully it will go down. Just had her s26 formula...have to wash her system asap....still fussy after eating..let me try to burp her more...

LOL...The things non-mums wouldn't know..

After giving birth, you dun care who sees what and who touches what. Yes, I mean your body. AH CRAP, i sneezed. PAINFUL LIKE HELL. I am just so scared that my stitches will TEAR. OMG. I'm being VERY VERY careful with everything I do and every movement. ANYWAY, back to the topic..which is...ehh.....oh yea...your body...The nurse can just come in and touch you boob just lidat and you wun feel shy. Trust me, 2 days ago if my mum were to request to see my boob I'll yell at her for being a pervert..but now, oh u wanna see...see. "the greatness of mummys" Michaela just went of for her blood test..I wonder what blood group will she be...hmm...i'm a b+ tho....ok i sidetracked. I am like sitting down with my boobs out and i dun care who sees what. They can just come in a ask me to spread my legs and check my down there and i also dun give a crap. but of course becos I know that they are professionals...they are doing it for ME.

I keep sneezing today..WHO IS MISSING ME?! STOP MISSING ME. IT HURTS! OW. Cough and sneezing is the worst thing you can ever do if you have stitches ANYWHERE. Imagine c section pain is worse den what i have now...OMG...OMG...OMG...

I had vegetarian bee hoon for breakfast. Taste great! I think Mount E has one of the best hospital food I have eaten...or heard..Not that i have been in and out of hospital a lot...but..yea....the food is tasteful! Not tasteless...its full of flavour..esp the beef thingy that i had yesterday..i finished all my rice and wanted 2nd bowl..but i controlled myself..NEEDA GET BACK IN SHAPE!!!! And I woke up in the middle of the night from hunger....feeding breastmilk does that. Gonna go for the breastfeeding class later with Little Miss Michaela.

OH OH OH, I went to the nursery...IT WAS FULL OF BABIES!!! (stupid comment i know) And its very warm...very very warm..and my girl was the sweetest thing among..like...40 babies? I managed to recognize her. hahhahha from the hat that i put beside her..LOL....they all look almost the same..i can only recognize colour..I went to her and she was half asleep and she poo and pee..the nurse changed her in like less den 30 sec..yea..they have been doing it for dunno how long..talking about her poo..it smells the same as my pee...i wonder why also..I am starting to feel sleepy...class is at 930...waiting for the nurse to push baby back to me so I can go to the class...15 more min! I'm gonna walk around braless..I DIDN'T GET A NURSING BRA! Needa get one ASAP. Marks and spencer should have my size...see whether I can go get later b4 going home or not...needa call for the nurse..oh the makan person is here, i asked her to inform the nurse and she did in 5 sec..GOOD SERVICE!!! I love makan person. time to get dressed and slowly make my way down to the classroom. Mummy lessons!!!!!!!! Will update on the class!

Morning world!!!

I managed to sleep thru the night!! I think i got bitten by some kinda insect..got some kinda itchy dot on my neck area..anyway, Bbay had fomula yesterday night becos I was wayyy to tired to produce any milk. I WENT OUT OF COLOSTRUM. So they wheeled her back. Somehow I felt useless..but its normal for the 1st few days to be lidat...gonna go take a bath and start my day! Gonna be discharged lo!

My labour and delivery story!

I had contractions starting at 6pm in the evening...but it was totally painless...just very very strong tightening of the uterus. But I have been feeling crampy the entire week..so i tot it was another false labour. I went on to order KFC to eat some more..hahahaahaha. The contraction didn't go off. I walked around but still it was still coming..i started to time my contractions. It was every 40 mins at 1st. And it became 20 mins den 10 mins den every 5 mins. So i waited a while. It became more intense. That was around 11pm plus. Den I decided to go to the hospital. I brought my hospital bag and the maid followed me there. I was hooked on the CTG. Contractions was not really strong as according to the machine. After a few hours in the morning, they broke my water bag. The contractions became so strong. I tried the gas, it made me feel drunk. but it didn't really take the edge off. Then i try the thigh jab..TOTALLY USELESS...so they talked me into doing the epidural. I took it. I managed to sleep for A WHILE..like 20 mins. Doctor came to check me I dilated to a 3cm already. And he went to get a haircut (it was his day off). And he came in around 3. I was already 7cm dilated. But with every contraction i became 8-9cm dilated.

Baby's heart rate started to drop because of the cord around the neck. So he decided to let me push. It all happened SOOOOO fast... the nurses put my leg on the I dunno what is it called. But its to hold my legs cos my legs were totally numb. Doctor asked me to push..i was like HUH?! TIME TO GIVE BIRTH AH?! lolz...so I began to push...for 5 mins and she popped out already. Doctor 'threw' her right on top of me. I was AMAZED by how big she was. 3kg!! And she was totally blue and purple. After that doctor stitched me up. I didn't feel anything cos of the epidural. 

BUT after that, after the epidural wore off..I ALMOST DIED OF PAIN. Until NOW. I took the STRONGEST painkiller just now. It helped A LOT. It was the anal one...but it helped...but now the pain seems to be coming back..Gonna ask for the next dose of painkiller. I want it to heal ASAP. So I can go back to my normal movements..i feel so paralysed...ARGHHHHH!!!! Oh crap...baby crying!!! I WILL BE BACK!

Welcome Michaela!!!!!!

Michaela arrived on 18th july 3:57pm. 50cm tall 3080g head cir 33cm.

Contractions! I think it is THE DAY!

Going to the hospital! Will update as soon as I can!

Found a online contraction timer

My contraction from every 40 mins became close to 10 mins apart...now i'm waiting for the next one to time it. I walked around and changed position and drank water to see if the contraction will go away...if it doesn't...means..its possible that it is THE day TODAY!

oh oh oh i just had another contraction!

The last one i noted was 40 mins ago...hmmm

Had a few regular contractions..but somehow they are gone...

I had contractions that were every 20 mins den became every 10 mins...but after i had my kfc..it is now gone! Or i think its gone? Baby's having her daily hiccups now...right after eating. hahahahaha.. let me see if the contractions come back...

feeling crampy all of a sudden....

Why do I feel so crampy suddenly...urgh....baby's somehow awake inside i think....moving here and there affected by the cramps also..there is comes again.....let me try to go walk it off a bit...

Some pics of my new place!

Although the room is smaller den what I am staying in now, its very comfy and it HAS A TOILET. So I took a few pictures to update you people on what I have done to the room today. VERY BRIGHT ROOM!

fine....not gonna go to serangoon anymore....going to CLEMENTI!

Going to clementi to decorate me and baby's new room! WOOHOO!!! Gonna look see and make sure everything is up to standard and to my satisfaction. Weather very hot...goodness....just 5 mins w/o aircon i tot i was going to die of heat stroke...

Mor da nings!

Going to NEX for a light shopping! Walk walk here walk walk there hopefully with bring on some contractions! Oh i ate thunder tea rice for breakfast..and while i was eating, i sneeze. And when i blew my nose there were bits and pieces of vege and cai po and rice flying out into the tissue..LOL. So gross...and best, i didn't feel anything..i think my nose is too used to being stuffed already.

Gonna buy breast pump later! Need to pump milk when baby is out in case she refuses to latch on or dunno how to latch one...the advantages of being the last one to give birth among peeps is u learn from experience..know all kinds of pattern the baby does during breast feeding..hahaha..absorb and learn and also learn from mistakes. Need to get the baby's anti wind oil also...Next check up tuesday morning. Hopefully baby did grow a little..and not none at all. And hopefully my weight drop! ^^ so sick and tired of being big and bulky..i miss jumping over fences and barricades...miss running miss walking fast and miss SLEEPING FOR 8 HOURS STRAIGHT WITHOUT WAKING UP!

3rd time...3rd time today!!!

Michaela's having her hiccups as usual....ARGH!!!! Her hiccups are getting stronger and stronger...just when i wanna go to sleep....

kidneys aching...

Its kinda normal for me..its how my body tells me i'm dehydrated...shall spam water tmr! Water water water!!!!!! *yawns* tired lo.....